Week 5

I forgot to post last night because my daughter and I had a sleepover!! What fun!! LOL!  She had been begging me to sleep in the "big bed" (mommy and daddy's bed) for over a week.  Last night Daddy went out with his friends and I told K she was welcome to keep me company in the "big bed". 

So anyways, back to business.  I've contemplated getting this Implanon out. Mainly because I can't stand my mood.  That's pretty bad when you can't stand YOUR OWN mood!!!

I've been very angry. I'm normally short to anger but lately it's just been ridiculous!! I have to tell myself to calm down way too often.  I'm also feeling very depressed. Years ago, and I mean YEARS ago, I was a very depressed person but somehow I snapped myself out of it and learned to enjoy life for what it was.  Lately the depression has crept back in my life.  My mantra, as of late, has been "I hate my life" and I don't want it to be!!!  I accidentally let that slip and I have to tell myself to shut up and not say something like that!!

I'm feeling a little better so I'm hoping that since I didn't have a period the hopelessness and anger were part of PMS. I'm hoping they will completely fade away until next month and I will be better prepared to handle the emotions.

Sex drive is down but only because of above mentioned feelings, I think.  Ha, everything my husband does lately annoys me.  I can't help it! I am truly trying to be more patient and loving but it's hard when your eyes are in a constant state of roll.

I stepped on a scale the other day and since I had this implanted I have lost 6 pounds!! I am trying to lose, kinda.  I eliminated sugary sodas and I am watching my calories throughout the day. Except at dinner, I really love dinner!!!  So I wouldn't say it has made me lose weight but it's also not causing me to gain any weight.

 

That's all I have to report this week.